Evolving?
October 13,
Friday. But, no,
October 19,
Friday.
It's a whole different story on these dates but let's focus on the newsletter now.
I'm in another state of confusion. Help me!!! But I have a lot of things to say concerning this topic. Or the topic in my head was 👇…
I'm sorry I couldn't get the part 2 of the comfort series out because the last one took me and some of my readers off balance and so it's on a halt for now till end of this month or maybe November. I have also been observing the maximum support from all of you and I really appreciate it. I really do. I love you all.
It's currently 8:00pm and I'm on my bed thinking about the title of this newsletter which is confusing to me as well because what does it even mean? But these are the kinds of situations that inspire me to write so let's do it. This topic popped up in my head because I remembered just a few days back when I was speaking to a friend of mine and mentioned that I would love to try spoken words, you know, like be a spoken word artist. For sometime, I listened to spoken word artists and I just love the rhythm in which they spoke. Is that even evolving or exploring?
I want to discuss on evolving. Growth is a wonderful aspect of life that God has put in place for mankind and it is something I personally I'm genuinely appreciative of. This is because I've observed my life and I have seen how the different phases of my life has been and the changes that it had lead to. Evolving has been a big aspect of my clarity journey and I would be talking about some of the things that evolving has done.
First, I look at my life in batches and in years. I group some years together and I tell what season I was in at that time. Adulthood has made it more blurry because of overthinking and confusions so I can say that my evolving in recent years has been a hassle that I can't even tell if I evolved or not but I'm very sure I did. My opinions, perspectives and sentiments in so many matters are making it more pronounced even. It puts a smile on my face whenever I think about it. My childhood years were interesting. Why?
From stories I was told and a little bit of what I remember, I was the fun and smart kid. The one who wanted to teach others that were her age and even older. The confident one, not scared, not shy but bold. A talkative with a lot of secrets. The one loved by so many people because asides brains, she was beauty.Cheerful and carefree, attracting so many people like a magnet. The organiser, things has to go that way because it was the only way it could work. My childhood years were more of no deficit, only credit. Many of the adults existing today would say so of themselves as well. I miss all that but I evolved.
My early teen years had extra spices to life for me. I had a million friends, it fell through, I was in a clique, but I had other friends attached to me more like the chains and rings I see in my chemistry classes. So many bonds of people, weak, strong, bent-you name it. The era of the weirdo beginnings, always in relationships giving advice, speaking straight up on relationships that were going to fail- it's the mind for me being one of the youngest, not being in a relationship but giving very good advice on it. Almost beat up people, arguing with teachers. And all of a sudden, disconnection with humans, being a loner, quiet, a little bit shy. I went from carefree to advisor and soft-spoken to quiet.
My late teen years were the times I started to look into my evolution as time went by and it became an aspect I was concerned about because it gave insight on what I do as a person and whether I was improving or not. Key factors that shaped my adult life beginnings were wriggling it's head showing signs. I got it at that point that I was unique and special. The EXTRA that adds up to make ordinary, EXTRAORDINARY. But then I knew that I had and was going to have issues because of that. My late teen years were a combination of both phases earlier mentioned, it was silent yet chaotic.
Right now, at this moment, I have found a pattern on my evolving. Though there were a lot of big changes here and there with the little time I've lived, there are trace attitudes and behaviors that do not seem to go away. The it is what it is personality and I'm sincerely grateful for that because it makes me, me. But I still want to evolve more. I want to become better and improve in that aspect, I want more experiences and knowledge. It does freak me out sometimes when it seems to me like no evolution has taken place in my life but I know that a lot has and a lot will continue to happen. Just here to tell the audience- those who watch me and have an opinion that I'm growing, not stuck and I'm improving.
Like me? Experiencing slow growth or maybe you think it's stunted, it's not, you just have vivid patterns of your personality. Important factors that you dare not evolve and let go off but improve, become better, let it scream!!! Do well to leave a comment, share and subscribe.