December 5,
Friday.
Writing by 4:42 am and hoping that this goes out by 9 or 10 am. It’s not been easy juggling between school and the newsletter editions. Guess what I discovered? I found out that whenever I gave you guys a weekly recap, I just summarized just one week without realizing that these newsletters come out in a fortnight and therefore I need to do a two-week recap. We shall start it this week.
Do not forget to enjoy by reading to the end, sharing, subscribing, and leaving a comment. Let’s get into the tea of today’s edition.
Recap of my week:
The first week was quite irritating for me. I caught myself tripping. Let me explain. I mean, catching feelings and falling in love are both wonderful things but to me and people like me who do not want to find themselves in such situations because of one issue or another, it’s disgusting when it happens. So I caught myself tripping for the opposite of my gender and I could just tell that something was wrong with me because the normal me would never. It felt weird but I was winging till the female hormone that was dealing with me subsided.
This week was and is just filled with a lot of stress and tests. I kicked off this week with 1000+ thoughts in 30 minutes. Is that normal? I do not think it is. Let me know your opinion by leaving a comment. I also thought of inputting a thought section here because you guys need to have an insight into the crazy things that I think about. While overthinking can be harmful, I sought to like it because it fuels my creative process. Deep, wild thoughts that let me know how meaningful life is.
I also wrote five tests this week in school and classes that made me feel like I was losing my mind and I am scared to tell you all that it’s just the beginning because next week promises to be deadly. But like I have always survived, I would survive and keep surviving.
Podcast;
I did put out two episodes in the past two weeks and I was ashamed of promoting them because impostor syndrome had Its way of hitting me this time around. I also think I should make improvements but I would share the episodes with you guys here.
Both episodes were interesting and enjoyable. You can listen to it here.
Now into the Lessons on Life that both weeks taught me. This edition will discuss just a topic:
Intentional living.
Do you just sit and think of how you have been living life over some time, or since you were born? This is something I do regularly over the years but this time, the thought of it was deeper than usual.
I observed little children on the streets who looked messy, running around while flying a kite. I observed people(adults) roaming the streets with no destination in mind because they were mentally unstable. I saw very elderly people whose time to come to an end is fast approaching. I observed young people who seemed to be living the life and I saw couples with matching outfits and smiles like they were genuine and then…There is me, the observer with fluctuating thoughts every single day.
These past few days have taught me things about living intentionally because I have considered what to add to my life to spice it up and live with intention. Living with Intention just means you have something to live for, there is a reason why you were created. My self-awareness has made me note that I can be a very mean person without even realizing that I am mean. But I like it because it is not a bad type of being mean, it’s just saying the truth without sugarcoating, and to my friends, it’s just to make them laugh and I love making people happy. That’s one aspect of my intentionality, improving relationships with people by making them happy, and adding to their joy. Helping others.
Another thing is prioritizing myself. Scrapping and scratching anything that harms my health especially mentally. I have also started to put into practice daily routines to get to know myself better like journaling, meditating, gratitude, and sometimes, just letting my inner child come out to display. Dance like no one is watching even if there are tens and hundreds of eyes on me, just live my life. I also do not want to neglect my body, my hair, my mind. I just want to enjoy the life God has given me and live with intention and I recommend that for anyone. Do not damage or ruin your life by practicing things that are not healthy. Smoking, binge drinking, and the rest of unhealthy lifestyles have no good effect on you. Seek to improve yourself.
Take care of you for you, the person you want to be with, and your children including the ones not yet born. You have so many things to live for. Life is going to life, but this life has a meaning and you have a role to play in this life of ours and one of these is, being alive to read this edition of the newsletter.
With Love, Tabss.